time travel..

satu hal yang tidak menyenangkan adalah saat kita menyadari waktu itu berjalan cepat sekali saat kita menginginkan sebaliknya.. dan hal itu dengan sangat mudahnya dapat bertukar posisi saat kita menginginkan waktu untuk berjalan cepat, dia pun ngga akan menuruti keinginan kita.. itu adalah hal yang lumrah.. seperti saat ini.. gw ngetik post ini lumayan kaget dengan waktu yang sudah menunjukkan jam 00.30.. hari udah ganti, tanggal pun mengikuti.. bagi orang yang menyia-nyiakan waktunya, penyesalan akan pembuangan waktu adalah hal paling menyebalkan.. begitu pula orang yang menggunakan waktu sebaik baiknya, karena mereka akan merasakan waktu itu tidak cukup berdurasi 24 pada hitungan jam.. tidak fair karena kita harus secara biologis membuang 5-6 jam kita..

intronya bagus kan..? sebenernya apa yang bakal gw ketik malem ini lebih kepada sebuah persembahan.. persembahan untuk seorang teman yang sudah menggunakan banyak waktunya hidup berdampingan dengan gw.. kenapa gw bilang ini persembahan..? karena mungkin saat ini cuma ini yang gw bisa lakuin buat dia.. kenapa jadi mellow, nand..?

well, this is the sory..

gw punya seorang temen yang hubungannya sangat dekat.. bukan karena kedekatan martial tapi karena kedekatan yang tercipta oleh waktu.. posisi dia emang temen, ngga ada hubungan lain selain itu.. ngga ada hubungan saudara jauh, ngga ada hubungan ipar, tapi dia udah ky saudara sendiri.. dia bukan orang asing di keluarga gw.. dan keluarga gw tau dia udah lama sekali.. pertemanan dia dengan keluarga gw, khususnya gw, dimulai semenjak gw masih sekolah dasar.. sepupu gw lebih dulu kenal dia karena dia duduk satu kelas di sekolahan.. gw murid baru dan gw satu tahun di bawah mereka.. gw dikenalkan saudara gw di sebuah acara yang gw ngga inget pasti acara apa itu, yang jelas karena masih piyik piyik, kita ngga peduli sama acara itu dan langsung menuju lantai 2 dan mulai menyalakan Super Nintendo.. main Captain America and The Avanger.. karena masih piyik, hal-hal awkward "baru kenal" itu ngga ada.. ngga seperti sekarang pas udah punya ego tinggi..

waktu bener-bener berjalan.. kedeketan itu semakin kuat.. tragedi trisakti (98) sekolah diliburkan, dia nginep di rumah.. we played like we don't care about the tragedy.. we played a lot.. sampe-sampe gw mulai menyadari, what makes our bridge so tough is "video game".. era-play station jadi moments mark tersendiri.. i remember when he stay a week and bring his play station, so we got 2 play station on my house and both of it plays Sim City.. time shifting when he decide to go to Medan.. well, i can't really recall for how long, maybe a year..? dan setelah dia kembali, guess what? nginep nginep lagi.. it's cool cos he finished Final Fantasy 8.. and he's Final Fantasy Die Hard Fan i guess.. and also Metal Gear Fan..

another shifting time.. when he moved to Bontang.. well, fort this, i think its longer than Medan.. and when he got back, another stay happened again.. he tell the life story there.. i like when he tells a story.. it's really fun to hear.. he got a lot of experience.. (just like his father..). his father is a sailor.. (well, not like you sail the sea and fishing, he's a boat captain.. large boat.. super large oil boat.. and he used to work at Pertamina). that really explain why he's good at story telling.. and i found out that his father is a good story teller.. that's how it goes when you got a lot of experience, you'll tell everything all over again, cos for people packed with experience, to tell a story, life story, its a pride.. it's far beyond "cocky".. well, people who studied communication behavior should know this.. and i'm majoring communication..

kembali ke topik.. HighSchool life begin.. and our lifestyle changed to.. he started to get involve on car community at his high school.. and he's good at that.. i cant ask the same from him like i did back there.. it's hard to reach men.. but easy to guess where is he.. saturday, he went to Asia Afrika.. famous short race venue at Jakarta.. move back 1-2 year from there, saturday nite it's like a fun time playing video games with him.. stay at his place or he stay on my house.. tapi ngga 100% berubah.. dia tetep seperti dia yang dulu, nice men, always tells a story dan gw ngga berubah even an inch, i love hearing a story.. his story.. about what happen at Asia Afrika and beyond all of it.. pada masa itu pula sebuah kesempatan langka terjadi.. seperti gw bilang, he's no ordinary friend, mana ada temen yang diajak ke Singapore bareng..? (pada masa itu ngga ky sekarang, you're freely go to anywhere as you might, cos it's easy and cheap with Air.... okay its a brand name and i'm not gonna name it).. di sana, sebuah kejadian memorable terjadi.. di mana gw dan dia sekamar, dan karena night before departing, we're not sleeping at all.. so moment we arrive at the hotel room, we accidentally fell asleep (because a lame Tom and Jerry movie).. dan kita ngebuang waktu kita di situ.. kurang lebih 4-5 jam waktu singapore harus terbuang.. dan setelah itu dicengin abis.. haha.. well that's fine.. klo ngga ada kejadian itu, there will be no story at all..

it's my college time.. ada saatnya di mana ada sedikit lag antara gw (as my family) and him.. jarang banget ketemu, jarang main bareng, jarang pergi bareng even ke gading like we used to do that on the past.. lot of things happen at the moment.. he formed a band with UI's student which is friend of my friend.. i watch him performed like twice..? third times? yeaa pokoknya i watch them dan sekali mereka manggung untuk acara seminar yang dihadiri sama Tukul arwana.. well it must be fun had a same stage with that famous man.. dan pada masa itu, he had a girlfriend.. well, i'm not gonna discuss the story about he and his girlfriend.. pokoknya they had a nice relationship.. but there's a problem that leads him broke up with her.. (heads up buddy).. on december.. err.. 2 years ago i think, i set a plan to surprise him at his birthday.. but as i lacking of internal plan maker, he's not at home.. and the surprise can be considered as F..A..I..L.. but that's okay, me and my cousin left a cake and a letters to him on his room, so he can read it and eat it when he came back..

another shifting time another passing moments, he started to form a band, and make him as a hard man to reach (again).. but still the same, it's not like we never met, but it's not like when we're young.. he's a boy turned into a guy then a man.. he decided to take an opportunities study abroad.. just like my cousin, his class mate.. my cousin already take abroad last year to Melbourne.. and he decided to go much more far than my cousin, his destination, London.. to be honest, this two guys are a mate for me.. but times goes by.. every moments shall pass.. now i'm alone.. well not really that alone.. i still got my family and some friends.. but it never felt like them.. there wont be any, "i'll stay at your home..", "come stay at my house, i found an interesting game, or movies, or just played a little guitar or just sparing a football game".. things are never be the same..

when i type this.. i deliberately tells my mind to do a time travel.. go on nand, go to your past.. there's a lot of fun things there that you cant have it this times.. you wont play Final Fantasy 8 again, you wont play Resident Evil or Metal Gear again.. you wont wrote a "Nasi Song" again.. now you're grown up.. i know you hate to be grown up.. but the time force you to do that.. and the life force you to do that.. so let your mind do that time travel for one more moment... after you done that, be sure you'll steady enough to bid a goodbye and goodluck for him..

saat udah dewasa, saat udah ngerti apa itu hidup.. sebuah perpisahan akan sangat jauh terasa sulit..

well, goodluck buddy.. it's a wild world out there, but i'm sure you'll get into it.. you're adventurer as far as i know.. 2 year it's a short time if you don't count the days.. and when you're back, i really cant wait to hear your story.. your life story..

Singapore July 2004

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